The lady never showed yesterday. That was my last resort.
Merlin was put to sleep yesterday.
I'm still REALLY sad about it.. it was a VERY hard choice because I mean he was only 7, but I couldn't give him to anyone else ya know?

Guess I'm just bumming around today.. still with a heavy heart. =0(

Well... it's rather crappy out today. =0(
So that means I'll have to stay in side for a majority of the day and chase Cameron around. Oye! Lmao. A lady is coming to meet Merlin today - she lives on a farm, she has another Border Collie (female) and seems to be very educated on the breed. And interested... so we'll see how the meeting goes. Adam said goodbye this morning before work.... he walked out with tears in his eyes. I TRULY understand he loves this dog.... but it's just too much now with him needing training. With 2 children - a cat - ..... I believe whole hearted that it's ONLY fair if we're to have a "FAMILY" dog... it's a dog that the everyone (myself included would be nice!) loves. I don't love Adam's dog. For lots of reasons. Adam knows this. I've had my OWN dogs.. so I understand where Adam is on this. Sarge was my purebred GSD.. Adam bought him for me because of my deep love for the breed.. he was MY baby. I put that puppy on a pedastal. However, WE ALL loved him. That's a "Family" dog. Granted he had heartworms... so that ended REALLY soon. Just my luck! Before we moved to Rochester... I adopted an 8 month old Bernese Mtn. Dog.. Bart. He was about to be PTS because he had been in the pound for 5 months... he was a massive HUGE dog and that's probably why no one wanted him. When I adopted him he was 110 pounds and the vet said he still has LOTS of growing room. He was the BIGGEST SWEETEST loving dog ever. And such a dumbass. Lmao. BUT again.. we ALL loved him.. I had to get rid of him because Adam's dog was constatnly attacking him.. and they would fight BAD! I regret it too.. I should of said NO way you get rid of your stupid ass dog. But I didn't.. because I'm a softy and love Adam so much. I am always sacrificing for him! Always! And it's just not fair anymore. So anyways.. yes I'm sad... because we've had Merlin for 6 years... but I KNOW... that is this lady adopts him he will have a wonderful home out in the country.. with a family that can train him. We can't do that for him. Even though Adam claims we can. *Snorts*
Adam's mom has NO clue about what I'm doing.... I know she'll tweak and I can't wait for her to.. I just want a reason to rip her face off. Lmao. bawhahahahahah! O well.. hope everyone is having a good Sunday.

I have officially broke down and lost my entire flippin mind.
I am so tired I can't even think straight anymore.
Christ.. I forgot to pay my cable bill this month.. that NEVER happens. *Grunts* O well.
We had a great weekend at Mom and dad's.. I posted some new photos in the album.
One of mom's new bunny "Sneakers".. she's so stinking cute!!!!
I Bet the next month or so EVERY post I put in here will be some form of complaining. ha!
I seriously just can't function anymore.. mentally, physically.. *Phew* I Just about crammed poor Adam's head under a pillow (not litterly) this weekend... not because he really did anything wrong, but just because this baby is making me evil! *Looks all crazy like*
My poor dad didn't even have to say anything and I ripped his head off.. Lmao.. I seriously don't mean to - it just happens. And emotional.. WHOA! Watch out.. I think I've already cried 3 times this morning and I don't know why! *Shrugs* I Give up. Lmao.

We're finally going to see mom and dad this weekend and camp out! It's been months.. we've only been down there once this summer. Ack! Cameron is so excited to see his grandma and grandpa... but also VERY excited to see Buddy and "Misty"..... he just doesn't understand that Misty isn't with us anymore. I tried to explain it to him.. but he's dead set that she'll be there when we go down. =0( So I'm not real sure on what his reaction will be.
Other than that, nothing AT ALL going on here. It's been warm like 80-85... perfect temp. We played outside ALOT yesterday... it looks rather gloomy out today.. so I don't know what we're going to do. I have another Dr's appointment on Tuesday (8/23). We got our stroller and carseat last night... it's nice. I don't like the color but that's okay. Can't always have what you want ya know? Safety is WAY more important. It's a Graco so I am happy. I HATE anything by Evenflo... terriable crap they make.
I'm feeling VERY heavy lately.... like at any moment if I move the wrong way Conner is just going to fall out. Lmao. Kind of gross huh? Yea well.... I'm still having a hell of a time sleeping... I just can't get comfy. I've been up since 4am. AcK! So I'm going to grab a nap while Cam is still sleeping!

I woke up this morning and the first thought that passes through my mind is the empty dogbed at my parent's house. My 12 year old GSD was put to sleep yesterday. I know it was time to let go but you can't ever prepare yourself for it ya know? A part of you just doesn't want to.
Misty was a GSD/Husky mix... I can still recall the day my father snuck her into the apartment under his shirt. We were about to move to the house where my parents live now, so it wasn't a big deal... but she was the absolute CUTEST puppy ever. She had massive paws and droopy ears. Dad was always telling us "Don't touch her ears or they wont stand." Misty did everything with me when I lived at home - hiking in the woods, fishing, going for long walks after school..... her favorite past time was running along side dad as he mowed the lawn. Although I say she was "MY" dog.. in my heart she was.. I always called her "Sissy" - but she was truthfully dad's girl. She just had to know where he was every moment of the day and would have a stress out if she didn't. She needed to know where EVERYone was when we were all outside. She was such a loyal dog.
So - Misty has Cancer that was spreading... I Guess when she went to the vet yesterday they said she had developed a tumor within her throat that made it really hard for her to eat and it was constricting her airway. She didn't deserve to live like that. So dad made the choice we've all been dreading.

I Just hope where ever she is - she isn't in any pain and she knows that I love her so much. =0(

I made this tag this morning ~ No tuts just messing around mainly with different effects and such. =0) I used one of my GOTH poser girlies to make this with. =0)

We did go to Seabreeze yesterday!!! And we had SOOOO Much fun. But POOR Cammers got sick.. not like vomit sick but poops sick. Poor buddy. So we had to leave and go home because we ran out of clothes, diapers, underwear, lmao. Poor dude. But we were there for like 6 hours.. so I say we got our $'s worth. I was having contractions last night after we came home.... they stopped though so I didn't bother calling the Doctor. But "phew" I was really worried for a minute there... they felt VERY real and *OUCH* They hurt. hehe. Not doing much today... cleaned, I still have to do a load of laundry and just hanging out. IT's WARM out again! =0) Oh and I made this new Gallery Image... I REALLY like it.. I don't know why. Lmao. http://www.craftedfairytale.info/album/index.php?id=36