Today is the third day since Merlin has been gone.... It's still hard. I am still adjusting to not seeing him around in his "Spots"... not taking him outside.. or hearing him bark when the doorbell rings. Adam hasn't said much about it.. if he's cried he hasn't done so in front of me... but I know it's hurting him. But he's taking it much better than I expected. I on the other hand have been busting out into tears just by seeing his picture... I had to take all his "Goodies" and pack them away.. it just sucks. Cameron keeps asking where is .... which in turn makes me sit and think about him.
I still feel like I am the biggest jerk in the world. Really.
Maybe my heart wont feel so heavy as time goes by ya know?